what the hell do u think of urself?? And y am I like this? I WANNA be independent... i don wanna depend on anyone... i don wanna be in love... cos thts my weakness... its nt my strength.... n m not emotionally stable...!!!... Oh god.... n sumtimes its like an emotional outburst which i jus cant handle!!!... :'( :( there r times i feel sooo damned miserable tht i dunno what 2 do.... i wanna shout out aloud... remove my frustration on every damn person... react in a violent way... break every damn thing tht comes in my hand.... tense my muscles... gossshhh.... m nt calm.... i need 2 shoutt...... i need 2 throw tantrums.... wonderin wht wud calm me in such times?? i dunno....i jus cant relax my mindd.... i need 2 get it out... my FRUSTRATION.... my frustration of nt being loved... my frustration of nt being heard... my frustration of nt being able 2 do my work.... my frustration of the indecisiveness... my frustration of the unknown... my frustration of nt being able 2 do what i really wnat to without considering the consequences.... FRUSTRATION FRUSTRATION FRUSTRATION!!!.... AND no1 to calm me n sail me thru this frustration... no1 who can listen 2 me... no1 who can make me think sensibly... noone... absolutely noonee.... :'( M going CRAZYYYY.............................. n alas.... ur the only 1 who listens 2 me... who puts sense into me thru my own words.... calms me down... m much calmer now... though i wonder if m sane?

oops... i don think m suited 4 blogging!!... cos as ssoon as i feel like blogging, by the time i log in n de webpage opens... m blank!!... ive 4gotten what i wnated rite.... i try n rite a story bt its never my thots!!... almost never.... bt sure... it gets me into a happy mood :) HEEHAA :P (i guess this is esp coss i see a non zero probability of someone reading my crap :) )